The Docks [OPEN, tw: marriage break up, drunken behaviour, violent tempers]

[willcabot]

Sitting at the end of the dock, Will's legs draped into the cold water as he finished the last mouthful of the bottle. Turning the bottle in his hand, the amber glow made him for one awful moment think of Corry's hair in the fading sunlight- throwing the bottle impulsively at the wall, he let it smash satisfyingly before pulling another bottle towards him.

He couldn't feel his toes any more, he couldn't remember how long he'd been sat here for like this. He hadn't been home yet, hadn't been to the boat just in case she was there. Everywhere he looked it reminded him of her, of the life that they'd promised each other and the life that was now in ruins. Because she loved him. Ha!

Glancing at the ring on his finger, he pressed his forehead to the rim of his drink and took a gulping breath in. Her smile as she said I do. Pulling the ring off he stumbled up and backwards before throwing it into the deep waters of the cove. Turning his back on the water, he took another few mouthfuls and heading towards the shore.

"Shit," Will swore, dropping the bottle to the floor before he turned and ran towards the end of the dock. Tearing off his shirt, he jumped into the water and dived into the deep, ice cold waters. Shifting, he swam deeper and deeper until he found the band of metal down in the dark bottom. Clutching it in his hand, he swam back to the surface before pulling himself onto the docks. Collapsing on the wooden planks, he stretched out his hand and ignored the feet of someone else standing there. "Pass me a drink, will you?"

His hand curled round his wedding ring, letting the metal bite into his palm as he stared up at empty grey skies.

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[willcabot]

"Because she loves me." Will replied bitterly, laughing at that. Even if it felt like he would never laugh again, even if it felt like there was something missing where his love had been.

Stumbling in to her office Will dropped onto her couch and threw his arm across his face as he stretched out along it.

"I'll pay for the dry- dry cleaning," Will muttered about his very bare ass being pressed against her nice couch. Holding his hand out for a drink, Will swallowed down the hurt about Corry's concern. She loved him, she loved him.

[asharpertongue]

"Because she loves you, despite everything." Lara said quietly, moving around the room to get a bottle of scotch and a bottle a of highland water. She made up two glasses, one whiskey and water and the other water and a splash of whiskey.

Handing the watered down drink to Will, she settled on the floor beside his head. As much as she loved Will, she didn't want to be looking directly at his junk. "The couch is scotch guarded. Don't worry about it."

[willcabot]

"Despite everything. The everything being her telling me she loves me and wants to marry me, lying to my face and our friends and my family, embarrassing me in front of all of them because she loves me. No, not me. She doesn't love me, she loves Les. She just never worked it out," Will said, taking the drink and settling it against his chest. He liked Les, he loved Corry. He didn't blame it, he just- he wanted to be happy but he'd thought that happiness was with him. He was happy with her after all. Happier than he'd been in a long time, comfortable in his own skin with someone. "She just had to marry me first to figure it out. And then he'll figure it out because who wouldn't love her? And I'll get to watch her be happy with him."

And the stupid thing was he'd be happy about it. He'd be happy she'd found someone who made her as happy as she made him.

Pressing the glass to his lips he drained the glass dry in two seconds before holding it out to Lara. He was going to be happy for them. But maybe first he might punch Les. That might be satisfying.

"Another." Will murmured, indicating the glass in his hand.

[asharpertongue]

Shaking her head, Lara filled the glass again and handed it to him.

"She never could do things the easy way." Lara said, running a hand up and down his arm. "And you always ran headfirst into everything." It wasn't an admonishment. She said it fondly. "It's a shitty situation."

[willcabot]

"Henry would've known, Henry always knew. He was always the smart- the smart one," Will said, taking the drink from her hands and swallowing half of it. Henry would've known that she didn't love Will, not the way Will loved her. That the way he looked at her was the way she looked at Les. "He was the one to keep me from running into everything. I don't know why she didn't tell me. She just... left. Just like her father."

[asharpertongue]

A familiar pang of sadness went through Lara at the mention of Henry's name. "He could barely keep up. And you ran all the way to another country to marry Corry. Even Henry couldn't have seen that coming." She said watching him balance the drink on his chest. "She didn't know herself, Will. I think if you believe anything, you should believe that."

[willcabot]

"I was going to marry her before that, I knew she was the one for years. Alex stopped me buying a ring before," Will said. Alex stopped him but Henry would have told him why it wasn't a good idea. All he wanted was her to be happy. "Yeah, but she did know. She didn't just wake up on Christmas day and think today is the day I'm going to end my marriage. She made plans. She knew and she didn't tell me."

She lied. She left. He was alone. Because she loved him.

[asharpertongue]

"You know better than that, Will." Lara said quietly, filling his glass with watered whiskey again. "There's a difference between knowing and accepting it. Maybe she knew but she couldn't face it. It was wrong, Will, but I don't think she planned anything."

[willcabot]

"She planned a trip away, she decided to leave. She just made me do the leaving," Will said wondering when in that morning. When they were in bed together, when his mother had rung about the afternoon's arrangements, when exactly it was that his wife thought she was just going to quietly slip away. Except she'd wanted to give him a present, one last meaningless thing. He'd never cared about presents, not from her. The only thing he'd ever wanted was her in his life and happy. Apparently he couldn't even give her that.

[asharpertongue]

Lara shook her head but she couldn't dispute it. The flights might have been booked at the last minute but Corry would have run the scenario over and over in her head a million times before she acted on it. That's how she worked.

Making a drink for herself, she watched Will for a second. "Would you rather not have know? Waited years and years and maybe had kids or something before she figured it out?" She asked quietly.

[willcabot]

"I don't know. I think I'd rather she just- told me. How she was feeling. Instead of just hiding it. She never used to do that," Will said. He had always been there for her, wherever they were if she needed him then he'd be there. Because even back then he'd always loved her, even if he was dating one or two of several models. He'd always drop everything for her. He wasn't sure what to do now that she didn't want him especially when she told him she loved him.

[asharpertongue]

"She's more guarded when she's sober, you know that." Lara said, sipping her drink. "I think maybe she hid it all from herself. It's not fair or right but I can see how she might."